crackilackin

Im a sickly, frail dude.

 I got hope, and i try to keep trying

. ..hoping that someday, everything, 

will be, MORE than just ok. 

Im tired of lying, all this fake rhyming.

pretending it has a point......but,.

who cares? haha........everybody cares

they all wanna help me, they put in the effort

and they never gonna shelf me....i got 

unlimited support, and quite a few resor---

--sez, its a shame , that theres no, one to blame

but myself, for my situtations stagnant air, 

but you say, you always ask, why I  sit right there

every day, every way, it dont matter what you say i always-

-stay, in my shell, but...you see, I DO care--- theres a

 rift, inbetween, reality-assuming

when you make, a mistake, its cuz you were presuming-----

what you see, sometimes don't, correlate too well

to the truth of what that is, whats inside, that shell

what you see, is the opposite of what , im implying

whats white, is really black, whats true...I am denying.   

Tranylcypromine (rap)

Tranylcypromine

Its not quite what it seems

But what I really thought it means

The name is powerful, it seems

When I was in my teens

On me people leaned

I hoped that, Tranylcypromine

Would make me clean

But nevertheless

What i take, doesn’t work

Thus Im permanently banned

To forums where I lurk

  I see facebook pictures

Of girls I like

Sometimes, sometimes

My hope is in sight

But the light, the end of the tunnel

I can see it, sometimes it gets really bright

But I cant take it lightly, or ill let it out of my sight

Cuz I don’t got might but I do got fight

At least a little bit, I know ill still slip

the lord seems to help if I go under and flip

So I don’t have to sit, I don’t have to quit

Ill just keep trying, cuz im not a piece of shit

Or should I think I am, because if so, then

I wouldn’t ever get stuck up, but then my pen

It likes to rhyme, it doesn’t like to push away

The truth flows outta me when I pray, or I say

So help me lord, I know you hear my prayer,

I know you see me hiding in my makeshift lair

I know its not fair, but I’m tired of my cares

Just take my shares, just help me up the stairs

You know I cant do this, by myself ill miss it,

I ve got no power, I always fail so I diss this

Im an empty, open book, ready too get took

Just open your arms wide, and take a big look

I really do need you , even if I forget

I don’t wanna get punished, but I know ive got debt

Just please let, fill me and make me set

Make me wanna do your work, make me fly like a jet

You know your cool, you know im a fool,

You know when im in pain, I will fall down and drool

You know Im a dual personalitied fellow

With a conscience and heart, as bendable as jello

You got this lord, help me trust that you will do so

Let my hope and my joy, outta my actions let it flow

make my eyes glow, my personality show

Your love and power, let them see it, and know.

Rap number 1#

Theres various ways, that we use today

To solve our problems , this is what I say

With insight, and, an algorithimic way

Right now im gonna tell u what I learned today

An algorithim is a very logical rule

Guarantees, a solution , even if u a fool

But insight, its different, it’s the inverse rule

Its illogical, its abstract , a lot more cool

Heuristic describes a thinking strategy

It helps u make judgments more efficiently

U can solve a problem, without much as much effort

but its more error prone, but faster in court

than the algorithmic way, I learned today

Confirmation bias is a kinda lame way

that we----confirm our perceptions, and our preconceptions

to support our false claims , it’s a dangerous way

justification, your own obliteration,

that’s the kinda stuff that gets to destroy nations

but it can be fixed, if your willing to change

the way you think, ….but u wont, that’s why its really kinda strange

fixations inability to look at a problem

from a another perspective , its keeps u from solve them

be u stubborn, its just the human way

u stick to your mindset, u  think its ok

mental set, a way to do a problem

the same old way, every single time u solve them

its developed by your past ones, turning out successful

cuz u wouldn’t do a thing, that could might be distressful

functional fixedness, is a concrete way

the tendency to think things ina  concrete way

screwdrivers cant ever do nothing else

never can they be a way to do something else

it just gets so old, every day im being told----------------that i

cant do a thing cuz it aint fit the mold-------of my

teaching, bleaching my fake affiliation    of my

nations’ belief that we all be creations

but….I know that you see, that there is more to me

a lot more to me, than simply just what you see

the reason I asks cuz im not quite free ,

I assure you when I am, youll see the real me

Ive always been messed up ever since I can remember cuz i

Member in december I was 5     …………..cant find no rhymes no more.

I was good be 4, but I always want more

It don’t matter what its for, its always seem like it’s a chore  ……….i always

Wait till the last chance the very point at which I cant

Become what I want to be, shun, that which isn’t me

Trust in him who comforts me, and choose the choice that makes me free    I

Hate that which I have become,  I hate this never having fun

Complicated such it is,  I don’t know why I cannot say, why     

I, am a helpless dude. I function like a selfish prude  

I Think im always right (of course)  

Help me Lord? Can you afford it?

If you can afford me, it'd be nice if you'd restore me.. 

I just had to act,  in front of quite a few people….but it

Wasn’t very hard..I acted crazy,
i dont know quite why, i still get nervous, cuz
my whole life, Ive ALWAYS been crazy